damn it!

my ntu interview was like a month odd ago and i hear no news from them at all!
called the admin office and she said not sure, it depends on how fast that department gives their results and then it will be sent out.
do they need so long to process my info?

im having very little confident that i'll get in.
how?

it is either i grit my teeth and hang on till end of june for that ntu letter.
and give up sim's offer.
if ntu letter fail to reach my doorstep, im doom.
doom spells work life.

or give up ntu letter. (anyway i don't even know it is coming or not)
and accept sim's offer, slog through all the mathematical symbols and graphs and every other bitter days of going to school only to see more maths stuff.
at the same time, praying hard that i will graduate.

it is either a yay or nay.
hmpf.

any advices you people wanna share with me??