sigh, kill me please.
or i can self volunteer to bang my head on the wall.

i might not choose psb.
so it is back to good old sim.

tell me, i should kill myself or not?

if i ever do choose that, i'll work in the mean time.
earn more moolahs to pay for school fees.
now i really know the importance of moolahs.

sgh, grant me my wish leh!
i promise i'll be a good good girl.
:]

this is bad.
very bad.


sending off gf isn't that easy for me.
phew, luckily i didnt tear or what.

got her a pretty gift.
:]

(yes, i say pretty, it is pretty ok?)

anyway, in return got my first hug from her!
ya, after so many years.
hahas!

that is all.
i got nothing much to update.

maybe note to self: stop pigging in till so late.
then maybe i'll have a chance to visit the dentist and the hairdresser.
:)


decided to pop by to update a little.
the space here seems empty and long overdued.

sigh, gf flying off tml night.
all the best over there and remember to flood my mail ok?
tell me everything about your life there and and of cus, any cute roomies & surfer dudes.
hah!
:D

with gf leaving for further education, very soon porksgh is going for ns.
that left just about me and me and me wondering what to do next.

oh well.

updates:
had chalet - the last before the guys start their ns. i wonder when is the next time all of us going to meet up again. played frisbee, gosh, i need to exercise. i got a bad bad heart.

went out with gf - the last time she get to wait for me to shit and the last time to hear all my nonsense. watched 21 with her too. shuffled in between seats and made a complete joke in the cinema, super embarassing.

had ikea meatball - this time round, no more fries. good old potatoes. :]

that should be it.

i'm going to need someone to tame me from july 11th onwards.
sigh.


btw, crazy bf got my 4 different drinks.
luo han guo, barley, homemade chrysanthemum and honey drink.

madness right?

but i appreciate it.
thanks.
:)


:]

its 19th june!
hee.

but sorry, i can't do much today.


RAH!!!

i hate fever.
the whole night i was tossing and turning.
too heated up to be asleep.
as the night went pass, my body temperature shooted up as well till the next morning which was 38.3 degrees.

bah, i thought i was turning into a roast pig.

night time was quite hard to sleep.
one moment hot, the other moment cold.
took me so long to doze off.
i hope tonight is better.

what i do whole day is to sleep and sleep.
completed a book today because seriously, keep lying down makes me feel more sick.

i still feel a bit restless and weak.
phlegm making me very irritated.
not much appetite either.
however, i do miss steamboat.
anyone wanna binge with me at chong qing's steamboat?
teehees.

and stupid vista causing me some problems.
let me do some updates.
if it cant start up again, i'll need to get help again.
pfft.


oh wait, forget to mention that ikea meatballs is not satisfying at all!

rah!!

the potato changed into fries.
eeeks!
i guess prolly boiled potato sold out le.

anyway, i am so going back for more.

PS: tony stark is SEXY!
PPS: too sexy for any words.


went out with gf today.
i fed her to the maximum.

*yays*

i ate quite some food today too.
:]

and im obsessed with organiser now.
oh, and the eyelet thing.
but gf forbade me to get it.
hmpf.

(bite lips)

i swear im gonna get my hands on it! teehees.


genting trip was not bad.
ignoring the exteremely-under-dressed-in-the-cold-weather-and-sleeping-on-the-floor-with-a-sleeping-bag part, i guess everything is good.

i didn't expect the weather would be so terrible, so happily, thinking it would be the exact same as the previous year, i brought shirt, berms, sweater and sandal there.
only that it is so not.
i got a sore throat and a cold on the second day.
so i'm still suffering from the aftermath.

:(

yesterday went out with gf&siti.
went to mindcafe.
it was fun.
mostly laughing away or shivering under the airconditioner.
took a few photos.
will upload if gf send it to me.
each of us only paid 10 bucks for 4 hours of games, free flow of drinks and one beef lasagne.
worth it right?

dinner was with porksgh.
initially our plan was to have meatballs however he came so late and i was lazy to travel so we walked all the way to far east (from ps) to have ramen ten.
im a sucker for ramen ten.
hees.

but i still want my meatballs and tcc.
note to porksgh: please take note!
:]

currently im hook onto the song bie ren de tian chang di jiu.
no idea why too.


watched kung fu panda with porksgh.
light hearted and funny show.
:)

then went still road to have crabs with ryan&simin and weiming&gf.
we had black pepper crabs, chilli crabs, vegetables, some fried you tiao with filling thingy, stingray and sotong.
each person about 25 bucks.
quite worth it but but i think all the food a tad too spicy for me.
i suck at eating spicy stuff, i know.

anyway, after that we went changi airport!
went to T3 and i have to say that i'm a suah ku.
never been there till yesterday.
and and and i want that long candy bar from candy empire!

ikea meatballs, anyone?

PS: everything means everything. no regrets :]


went out with andrea today.
had tcc for lunch.
chicken and mushroom sandwich - so indian-ish feeling.
even the keropok taste like that too.
verdict: eeeks.

so so so, all hail to the seafood aglio olio.
<3

anyway, combed the whole of bugis and i only got a pair of earring.
.______.
im so so not going back there anymore.
nothing nice.

pfft.

dinner at soup spoon.
gossip a little then it is home sweet home.

PS: it was a hot&crazy session but i absolutely heart it.


geez, im bored.

no swing tonight.
:(

no porksgh tonight.
:((

only sms, cherries and endless blog-hopping to tide me through the night.
sigh.
:(((


._____.

i keep thinking today is saturday.
especially seeing how all of us are at home.

only that now brother is not home (currently rp having holiday) and momo is taking another nap (down with flu).

by the way, HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY ANDREA!




work officially ended.
(:

so now, im living the life of an unemployed person.
ask me out!
i'm free now.

PS: they are addictive. :]


alrights, meeting porksgh for dinner.

yays!

and so, it is saturday.
if i gather enough courage to step into the dental clinic.
haahas!


someone need to point a gun at my head and force me to go the dental clinic!

i've been procrastinating since last year?!
or was it last last year?
mmhs..
:/

so maybe i'll go tonight?
or this saturday.
:))


deep down inside, im still secretly praying hard that my appeal works.
and luckily i remembered about it else, that is it.
at least, now i got 0.5% chance.

lol!

brother was at home the whole day and being a nice sis, i didn't want to drive him to crazy with my playing.
and seeing how my thumb and index finger still hurt, i decided not to practice anymore.

hence, now im B.O.R.E.D.

by the way, i thought today is 3rd of june, only that im so so wrong.
____ must have hated me because i had rejected the interview on the day itself without knowing it that yesterday is 3rd.
:/

ok, im still bored.
shows aren't that tempting now.

porksgh, pay me a visit so i can play the swing again.
:))


i practiced for at least 3 hours, resting a little here and there.
and i swear, my thumb and index finger are in pain.

arrgh.

and the stupid rhythms are killing me.
simple yet, destructive because when i focus on the identifying the notes, i lost the rhythm.
pfft.
i spent most of my time trying to register the notes with the respective fingerings.
not to mention, the bridge keys too.

by the way, i didn't know the concert is a joint effort with tp's band.
.____.

at a certain point of time, i really feel like giving up everything.
like what is the point of doing this again.
porksgh said i should just give up on playing because im no longer interested in it anymore.
im just wasting time.
god, im fickle minded.

oh, and i rejected ___ interview.
don't ask why.
i need to re-think about what i'm going to do.

someone enlighten me please and show me the path.


just some random photos that we took.
:)

see see, see my gf wearing spectacles!

i'm sure this few photos were taken on the 29th.

our dinner at coffee club.

yummy prawns.

in search of the fondue.

i wanna go again. *drools*

since year one sem one, we have come a long long way. yeah?

basically, these are the few photos we took.
after listening to the 3 pieces, i'm gonna make a lot of noise tml.
i hope i won't get complain.

PS: i need the seventh night of july score! eeeks.

went to play in ____.
sigh, didn't really like the people there.
too foreign and not welcoming at all.
i foresee we won't be able to play super nice repertoire.
or maybe there will be because afterall outside band do things differently from school band.
oh well.

and i feel like an outcast there.
although there are some nice friendly souls in my section, still, heave a big sigh.

first try, i couldn't even play B and C.
eeeeks ler.
sight read was even worst.
at ubber slow speed and lotsa fingerings long forgotten.

one thing did perk me up, the conductor looks young.
and doesn't look scary because i hate fierce conductors that pinpoint the individual part and make you play solo in front of them.
eeeeeeks.

and my friend, did not make me feel welcome at all.

but i still decided to loan back the instrument and practice because i hate not being able to play.
im going to triumph over the pieces!

first time playing already leave me with some bruises.
*pain*

anyway, im stupid and retard to agree on going.
eeeeeeeks.

permission granted to smack my head.

PS: i feel dumb there.
PPS: i want the songs so i can be a great photocopying machine.
PPPS: i need to work on my lousy rhythm.