went to play in ____.
sigh, didn't really like the people there.
too foreign and not welcoming at all.
i foresee we won't be able to play super nice repertoire.
or maybe there will be because afterall outside band do things differently from school band.
oh well.

and i feel like an outcast there.
although there are some nice friendly souls in my section, still, heave a big sigh.

first try, i couldn't even play B and C.
eeeeks ler.
sight read was even worst.
at ubber slow speed and lotsa fingerings long forgotten.

one thing did perk me up, the conductor looks young.
and doesn't look scary because i hate fierce conductors that pinpoint the individual part and make you play solo in front of them.
eeeeeeks.

and my friend, did not make me feel welcome at all.

but i still decided to loan back the instrument and practice because i hate not being able to play.
im going to triumph over the pieces!

first time playing already leave me with some bruises.
*pain*

anyway, im stupid and retard to agree on going.
eeeeeeeks.

permission granted to smack my head.

PS: i feel dumb there.
PPS: i want the songs so i can be a great photocopying machine.
PPPS: i need to work on my lousy rhythm.